Hate me for who I am..
But don't you DARE love me for who I am not.
Call me a bitch for speaking my mind.
But don't be fooled by my silence.
Go ahead and call me crazy.
Because I am.
Go ahead and call me a freak.
Because I am.
Say what you have to say.
It won't affect me anymore.
Hurt me with the truth.
But don't you EVER DARE TO MAKE ME FEEL SOMETHING WITH LIES!
Don't fear me, nor my vengeance.
Fear Karma, and the wrath she possesses.
Don't ask me for me.
Because its not going to happen.
Do not hoard what you cannot possess.
But never take for granted the love given to you so freely.
You enjoy being alone.
As do I, so live and let live.
When are you going to start living?
I mean...Really, truly living?
Do not ask me for help.
But be willing to accept when I am willing to help.
Do not help me.
Because you don't know how.
Stop running away from life.
Instead, run toward life.
Chase your dreams to the fullest.
But don't let your dreams be someone else's.
Dear boy who's broken me, and destroyed me beyond repair:
Take my words of advise in for a moment, think things over, you've lost something...someone, I am NOT an object to be tosses aside mind you, that will really hurt you the day you realize whats up.
Dear Boy who's made me hate that four letter word:
I hope you NEVER have to go through this...though I know it will happen to you, as Karma has always had her ways of balancing out the world.
Dear Boy who's made me absolutely afraid of dating:
Sharing is nice, but please..don't share your fears with others in the way you have with me. One day, you'll see how scary it can be...and I'll still be me, alone, broken hearted, wondering about you, and how you are.
Dear Boy thats making me fight tears right now:
The way you've went about things was not the right path. You don't know shit about people, and I'll be damned if I ever let you this close again.
Dear boy that's cause me to wake randomly, and feel empty inside:
Give me what you've taken back. You have a part of me that I can never retrieve, realize that.
Dear boy that causes my soul to sing sad symphonies:
I wish you'd realize how good I was for you, how much of a wife I could have been one day. How much I really DO love you.
Dear boy that's memory marks everything I do:
I love you, but you don't love me. I've come to terms with this, so quit your bitchin, move on, and stop being so self absorbed. I hope you meet yourself reflected in a beautiful girl one day..
Dear boy who's name stains the pages of my diary:
If only you knew how much I thought about you, how happy you made me, how perfect for me you were, and how much I still, painfully love you...You would hate yourself more than I hate myself. More than you've ever hated in your entire life.
Dear boy that I have never wronged:
This isn't my fault...all I did was love you.
Dear boy that causes me to be lifeless:
You hurt me, I'll never forgive you for this. You were so important to me, and I'm sure somewhere, deep down, you still are that important.
Dear boy that made me hate hugs from anyone cause they make me think of your hugs:
Why did you do this to me? Why did you have to hurt me so much...? You were my friend, now...we're nothing at all. I'm so confused. I'm lost, and I know I'll never be found.
Dear boy that will never read any of this:
They're all to you. You're the only one I could have written all of this about, you painted my world, but the paint is fading to grey. Yes I do love you, more than I could express, but I never want you to speak to me again. I never want to see your beautiful eyes again, hear your laugh, your sweet voice, or see that incredible smile of yours ever again. I don;t want to. I'll keep all that locked away in my memories, which is also, to me, where you will live from now on. You think Eminem has a temper? You obviously don't know Rhi, so don't grow partial, that jus gives ME ammo for MY arsenal. Just leave me alone, don't think about me, don't talk to me, don't touch me...don't anything...until YOU GROW UP! Yes, I miss you...I love you and blah blah blah, don't forget it, but don't regret it, or take it for granted either. Good bye.